all the people i think i am

lkjsdf @ 2009-08-16T20:39:00

2009-08-17T02:40:43Z

can't stop shopping on amazon.ca

:(

2009-07-20T17:14:46Z

turns out makeup = cancerous. help me find safe makeup????

bday

2009-07-07T14:51:31Z

here is a little birthday wish list:

- keds
- a sewing machine
- a polaroid camera (the instant film kind)

anyways, this is a baby blue jay in my yard-

money is everything and starbucks owns you

2008-12-17T04:03:16Z

consumerism=fulfillment yeah?

i guess better quality of life = buy and consume ( more), repeat until death.

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2008-12-11T20:00:16Z

still unemployed after 2+ mo.

weee

sand

2008-11-02T08:05:36Z

feels like we're treading so lightly, wish the footprints were deeper

immanence

2008-10-01T08:13:13Z

how it's only a few more days now is
only making it harder to ignore now how hard it has been.
what i'm feeling is a strange mixture

3 days. i'm consumed.

bookish lately

2008-09-26T07:15:31Z

i can't seem to relax, i don't know why/what's making me stressed out and nervous. it's all the time i'm really guarded and can't deal with strangers which is bad because my job = talking to strangers and i'm so l;ksjdf;lskjdf about it and i hate them but i want to just let it go. let it rise up and out of me in a small cloud. little inner battles that just need to stop. i get the feeling that it's something really minute but that is still managing to spill into every interaction.

blurry

2008-09-24T05:07:12Z

eyes keep going out of focus, why

the words that tell me nothing

2008-09-23T08:52:02Z

mood swings are awful
like a monster that rises up coming from a dark dark disgusting cave hidden way deep inside me
a place no light ever reaches
chest tightens but it's no use,
i'm getting all twisted up inside, twisted like you wouldn't believe
can't find myself anymore, i've become a ghost, there's just twisting and raging and despair

everything that we all have gotten so good at keeping in a cage
can't just tell/make/force it to subside now, it's not up to me now

i suffer through the storm. it's over when it's over.

wo ho

2008-09-20T22:20:52Z

white mocha americano! mm

folk

2008-09-20T06:35:17Z

sometimes i'm all like ahhh, what am i doing what am i doing??? wasting shitloads of time? probably.

right now i'm hormonal and it's kind of distracting, and in that confusion all up inside me kind of way.

hippy?

2008-09-14T05:20:19Z

ehehe

2008-08-26T16:10:48Z

my more stuff on my cat book!! :D

plato

2008-08-26T07:34:29Z

"what the greeks were was a reality, not a promise. and what we are and hope to be, is derived, as it were, from the influence and inspiration of these glorious generations."

tomorrow i pick up my boxes from the post office!

kiki, dani, christopher mine again + cute downtown apt. = euphoria

2008-08-22T02:44:56Z

;AKLSJD;LFKJ october please come soooooooon

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2008-08-18T04:22:23Z

i fucking hate this place :'(

break the chain break the chain

2008-08-16T02:35:40Z

surrey is a shithole and my life is going nowhere. i want my kitten and my friends. mountains are pretty.

ahh

2008-08-15T16:52:01Z

me + a peeling sunburn = good times?

it's a good story

2008-08-15T16:49:52Z

but i don't wanna live it alone
crash to take a chance
i wanna live it out!

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2007-07-12T05:29:53Z

Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.

whenever i'm alone with you...

2007-07-11T07:08:58Z

i have these day dreams where these people i know are just sitting in my room. just there but we're not talking or doing anything together or even planning on saying a word. together. we're in the same room quietly sitting and doing things like reading and drinking a glass of water and listening to music.... and i feel complete.

(',')

2007-07-11T06:34:28Z

i hate how i am always plugged in but never really fully connected.

lkjsdf @ 2007-07-09T13:31:00

2007-07-09T19:31:45Z

there is always someone screaming in the street at every hour. sometimes i just want to drop a bomb on this place.

if this is the war of the worlds

2007-07-06T15:48:41Z

i need to find all my film